Lost.

I am lost in my future.


Today had a short conversation with my colleagues during lunch time. When she mentioned about her son is interested in arts more than Physics or Chemistry, suddenly I realized that I didn't work hard to fulfill my dream, in fact, I didn't even take any step towards my dream. During primary school, I found out I am talented in arts. I could do the beautiful colouring just like my friend did in her art work without having any problem with it. Since then, I thought of becoming an interior design.


So what caused me losing my dream?


Reality it seemed.


Well, despite the family problems I faced all these while, I chose to study some common subjects which enable me to get a job 'easier' while the unemployment rate of graduates is still quite high in our country. And now, I work as a banker in Public Bank, common enough? lol


Recently, I have a second thought about taking master in a foreign country. Study abroad is always my dream (after I lost the interior design dream). lol   BUT!!! Have to save $ to pay for the car financing loan.... ish ish ish.... so... another dream is leaving me behind. =(


For those who are still on the way realizing your dream, I'm happy for you and always supporting you. For those who still don't have any dream and on the way finding one, get one and go for it! Be BRAVE! You wont regret for sure! =D


Always has this in my mind: there are always something good awaiting you when  you lost something important.


Still, the problem is here. Where will my future lead me to? I'm lost.

Late.

Late. Very late.


These few days, around 7 something, I only manage to get back home from work.


Working hour is 8.45 am until 5.45 pm from Monday to Thursday and for Friday, 4.45pm. I bet you must be thinking about "wow, you can go back home very early on every Friday and yet you can get high salary every month! So damn nice weiiiiiii... I also wanna get a job like yours!"


I tell you, you are very wrong lorrrr...


When you wanna get high salary, there is always a very high pay for it.


Like a stock, wanna get high return? Go get the risky one.


Got it?


So back to the main topic. For your information, I am still very new to the working place and only one-month-plus-old baby in the bank, with very very little working experience (amounted until today). I started to learn stuffs about credit, slowly picking up the pace of becoming a credit officer. Yesterday, the mobile credit officer girl told me something that really delighted my day. She said I have learnt a lot of things that she has never learnt during her training at another branch. Am I lucky? You say it.


Yea, it is very lucky the Headquarter put me in this branch.I don't care if you say that I'm not productive and I take longer time to complete a simple task compared to others, as long as I get to learn new stuffs and I know what I'm doing. That's called learning stage!! Although I damn blur MOST OF THE TIME.


Today, thought of finishing all the tasks given by colleague on time and go home sharp at 4.45pm. I didn't do so because I know the workload is getting more and more as day goes by, especially now shortage of manpower! Next week onward I wanna be more efficient, don't wanna back home so late like today, 7.15pm =(


Okie, so that's all for today.


No more late next week! I hope so......

End.

Can't believe that another new year is just few hours away. Gotta say good bye to 2011 and so unwillingly to welcome the year of dragon, 2012...


And here is the update after the last post...


21 November 2011, I started my first ever job after graduated from university as a banker in Public Bank Berhad. Got the credit analyst post as in working at the back office without have to meet the customers and strangers like front line officers or salespersons. It has been a good time for me to work in Jelapang branch because the colleagues there are damn nice and helpful. Being the only zero working experience person in the bank, I failed to offer them my help since there are so many people clearing their annual leave. =S


When the November month ended, I got my first salary pay. Didn't expect that I would get my salary so soon, thought it would be around end of December. So.... I treated my special one a Korean dinner at DaoRae as I promised. =) The food there really nice although a bit expensive. Owh.... Did I mention anything about I fall in love with Korean food? 

I'm sure you know what is this.

What I want to say is.....

I 

bought 

a 

new

Myvi!!!!!! 

Hahahaha... My first asset, a purple Myvi. 

Well well well~ I have to get myself a car no matter what. Nobody is free to send me work everyday. Nobody. So I have to be independent, like usual. Drove this new car to Penang to spend my 2011 Christmas there. Met my sensi in USM too. Hehe... Overall, a nice Penang trip especially driving own car around the island. =D

Aww... Forgot to wish ya all Merry Christmas. =p

I kick start my last day of 2011 by cleaning my room. Change the green curtain into a red plus orange plus yellow curtain to further bring out the CNY atmosphere. Clean the book shelf and my computer table and also bed sheets. The hardest cleanliness job is to carry the heavy ladder from outside to my room before start cleaning the fan! Oh my god, it has been a year without cleaning the fan, so the dirt got an inch thick. So disgusting. After that, mop the floor and wash the toilet as well. Damn tired after everything is done! 

Hmm.. still have no idea how to celebrate the new year. Anyway, I wish everyone having a great year ahead with a good health! 

Happy New Year!! =D 

Titanic

Few days ago, a friend of mine posted the official trailer of Titanic that is going to show in 3D next year. I still remember the fame of this movie, since I have nothing to do at home, I decided to download this movie and watch it again. Haih, just that bear in mind please don't watch it alone. Felt really sad and almost broke into tears during the ending part... 

I don't want to be the Rose in the movie, but I definitely wish to have a Jack Dawson in my life. =p

11.11.11

It is time to let go. =)

拥有五个1 的日子

昨天晚上早早跑去睡觉，结果根本就睡不着
没有眼睁睁的看着天花板或学别人那样数绵羊
只有无数的回忆在脑海里飞过
想在正式上班之前调回健康的生理时钟
偏偏让失眠找上孤独的我
真是他X的 不想骂粗口都不行


以为终于睡得着
结果被无名的声音给吵醒了
已经睡眠不足了，头更加的痛
哇！真想大哭一场……
一个月多前找到的工作
却被无数的问题给延迟
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊


2011年11月1日
拥有五个1 的日子
对我来说并不是什么特别的日子
不过，我找回很多失去的回忆
翻阅着中五的日记
原来那时的我对爱情充满憧憬
做了一些很有勇气的事情，哈哈
看着旧时的照片
我长大了很多很多
原来适时的回首一下
会发现我遗失了 单纯的美好


送上一首慢歌，蔡依林 〈消失的城堡〉